Take a Break
This morning, at the start of my yoga class, I lay on my back, noticing every part of my body that was in contact with the mat. The teacher invited us to soften our gaze or close our eyes and pay attention to the rise and fall of the chest and abdomen as we breathed.
It was then that I felt a sudden, deep sense of relief. For the next hour or so, someone else was taking over, telling me what to do. A kind, measured voice was giving me instructions. I didn't need to plan or make decisions, I didn't need to organise, and most importantly, I didn't need to respond to anyone else. I could focus all my attention on myself.
As a nurse, I spend much of my day looking outwards. My senses are constantly on alert: assessing patients' conditions, monitoring for change, responding to alarms, sensing their needs and the needs of their families, communicating and negotiating with colleagues, supporting and asking for support.
As a yogi, I turn my attention inwards.
The physical practice of asana requires me to focus my attention on my body and breath. Can I feel my ribs expand as I breathe in? How long is my exhalation? Can I feel my weight shifting as I balance on one foot? Does the other side feel the same, or how is it different?
The practice allows my busy mind to settle, and I become absorbed in the here and now, simply noticing what is happening in my body, my breath and my mind. My nervous system, so accustomed to being alert and ready to respond, relaxes a little.
When I leave the mat, the world may come rushing in, demanding my attention and response. I turn my attention back outwards again, but I find I can meet the world with a little more calm.